random_thoughts

Living a dream

2006-03-23T08:06:00.000-08:00

Saw Iqbal recently..a brilliantly made movie about a dumb and deaf boy who has just one dream..to be a great cricketer. His father (as commonly expected) is against the game of cricket and expects that his son becomes a farmer like him..but he has his with him his mom and his sister to believe in his dreams..
And one day he overcomes all his barriers to be someone proud to represent India in the International games...quite a story isn't it..though a brilliantly made movie what I liked abt the movie is it's concept...In fact have been studying quite a lot of inspirational movies(oh come on..what else do u expect a vella 2nd year of IIM A over tuchha to do)....
One thing about them is that they fell passionately abt their goals..live eat, eat it and drink it...they are optimistic abt it..yes they know they can do it...and they give up the easy road ahead to traverse the less traversed road...Another thing that I have seen is that most of these passionate heroes do come across a situation that compels them to give up their passion, do the mundane jobs as they have to be accountable to their family members...but somewhere down the line they realize that they are made for their passion...they just can't stop their urge to do that one thing they believe in...wonderful isn't it?
Wonder whether I have the power to dream big now...don't ask now why...yes I do have a dream too...but don't know whether I can traverse the less traversed road...well I for one have the most supportive family that has never demanded anything...but still..I doubt my ability to live my dream...
And I wonder how much my readers have the instinct to question what they are doing because they thought others did it as well....
They say u get to live once and thus live it according to ur desires...they say as long as there is a will there is a way...they say if u want something badly it comes to u..they say when u r out to get ur dream the nature around u conspires to lead ur way to ur goal...
But they don't talk about people who had to leave their dreams midway because god did not favor them..they don't talk about zillions of people who go to sleep killing their dreams every time they see it...they don't talk about people who want to breakfree but the nature conspires against them to stop them against reaching their goal..
Mebbe the world talks about successful people..mebbe everyone bows in front of the rising sun and the setting sun has no visitors........
Yes I have dream for whom I haven't still yet discovered my love..dunno if I am passionate about it but wud like to see it happen one day...I am not optimistic abt my dream to say the least as it takes quite a challenge to get ur dreams..I don't know if one day I can write a blog called "the dream is fulfilled"...I don't know anything abt it...just know that I have a dream and am living a dream...Mebbe hope will prevail one day...Mebbe the lost soul in me will reproduce a winner..till then I live a dream..I live a dream

Life's strange!!!

2006-02-12T16:13:00.000-08:00

Have you ever felt clueless about what to do? No I am not talking of any crisis situation where mebbe the mind gets frozen for a while before u take a sharp decision...I am talking of certain situations where in though you think you have to do something u don't feel like doing anything...like the one I am currently experiencing...at 5:45 am in the morning, not feeling like doing anything (not even sleeping, watching movies, mugging..though I dnt feel like mugging anytime nowadays)...strangest part is that I am unable to answer why I am feeling like that? In fact have been experiencing a feeling of void for the last some days...no I am not a great introspector and thus please don't expect me to do some serious soul searching....I know that the answer lies in me but I don't even like to take time to find it out..major give up isn't it?...
But I guess I am a little tired...after what...don't know...maybe tired after a lot of thinking during these past few days about issues thought to be important in a B-school, maybe tired after the France trip (I did not get any vacation after that), maybe tired after this journey of 18years of education for..hmmm...sorry dont have an answer for that...but I am not sure why?..
The last few days have definitely been taxing...and surprise surprise the coming days promise to be even more taxing...
But anyone who is reading this must be also feeling like this (the "not-feeling-to-do anything" syndrome)....can u suggest what is the way out to channel enrgies in a more productive manner rather than to write arbit blogs and creating a good passtime for u when u ream em' ;)

feeling discouraged

2005-12-28T02:29:00.000-08:00

One thing that I have always failed to ndestand is when people tell you that it is networking that can make or break ur career...what the hell...if I am the most charming guy on earth with little to offer then can i really stay where i am because of networking...mebbe I can...but isnt that the reason that some institutions are festering...is the society meritocratic or is it meritocratic only for the best ones and then tapers of to "I know your cousin" philosophy...I dont know..am i missing something...can u help me finding the missing point

a great one...

2005-11-24T09:13:00.000-08:00

Well just received something on mail which i would like to share with everyone...Nice piece...i think I am slowly adapting my life's philosophy to that presented in the thought below:

Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there...toserve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help figure out who you are or who you want to become. You never know who these people may be but you lock eyes with them, you know that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way. And sometimes things happen to you at the timethat may seem horrible, painful and unfair, but in reflection you realize that without overcoming those obstacles you would never realize your potential, strength, will power or heart. Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of luck.Illness, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test limits of your soul. Without these small tests, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless. The people you meet affect your life. The successes and downfalls that you experience can create whom you are, and the bad experiencescan be learned from. In fact they are probably the most poignant and important ones. If someone hurts you, betrays you or breaks your heart, forgive them because they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart. If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you,but also because they are teaching you to love and open your heart and eyes to little things. Make every day count. Appreciate everything that you possibly can, for you may never experience it again. Talk to people whom you have never talked to before, and actually listen.Let yourself fall in love, break free and set your sights high.Hold you head up because you have every right to. Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself, no one else will believe in you. Create you own life and then go out and live it.

Is man a social animal.....

2005-11-16T07:57:00.000-08:00

Well I do remember that in the primary school we used to have a subject called social studies( it involved studying history, geography, civics and economics)...with out any doubt that subject was the most dreaded by most and most boring to me....to me a statement like man is a social animal sounded outrageous....did I need anyone to support me and make me happy? Isnt happiness something that u can generate in your own mind? Isnt grouping up a sign of weakness and doesnt the lion hunt its prey alone? The lion is reverred and thus the statement that man is a social animal did not make sense to me.....
But then now that I m here in France I think all my life till now it was a great mistake to think that...Talking to ur best friend might not seem a big deal to u rite now with ur friend a stone's throw away...but there are some unfortunate few whose greatest worry for a day is whether they will be able to talk their heart out to anyone ?...there are some unfortunate few who receive no birthday wishes.......... And yes no matter how strong u are u need to talk ur heart out..it is damn important....An idle mind as they say is a devil's workshop...but an idle mind with no one to share thoughts with can be the devil itself.....
For those of u who think that parents, friends, girlfriends/ boyfriends etc etc are always there and thus u need to be more concerned about yourself, all i can say is open up your brains...try one day of not talking to anyone of the above and the very next day you cannot stop making a call to each one of them and thanking them for being there....Yes they are the people who enrich our lives, making it beautiful by adding drops of beutiful and memorable experiences.....and isnt life a sea of experiences.....
So before u start thanking everyone close to your heart , all i want to say is yes today i firmly believe that man is indeed a social animal!!!!

I have created this blog because......????

2005-11-15T10:44:00.000-08:00

well that is on of the most difficult questions that I m figuring out how to answer. I am not the secretary of any literary club of any institute equipped with a golden hand( source: golden foot in world cup!!!) nor am I an intellectual genius with a very high history behind myself, so that fans follow how I think............
Yes I do at the moment have something in common with some blog writers .. I am outside my country India since the last 2 months and this mite make people believe that I am writing the blog to post my experiences here in France and the rest of Europe..But much to the dismay of the hopefuls, I guess they mite not hear more than a para about that topic. STrange isnt it?
What the hell am I writing the blog for? Well my intention is a very selfish one...I intend to throw out some topics out of my mind....talking to people mite be a gud way of doing that but then one is always not that lucky always to speak their heart out...so blog writing I thought wud get me to pen down my thoughts and in a way get rid of them..
This brings me to one of the most amusing things I have given a thought to..Why do people write diaries after all? Inspired by movies where a criminal is caught only because he wrote a dairy bazzigar where shahrukh gets caught by kajol...what a shame!!!) always made me awfully cautious when I thought of writing a dairy...Not that I ever planned a crime but I guess the most important point out here is the fear of revealing oneself...That acording to my mind is one of the greatest fears we all harbor...not that everybody is bad but then the common thought supporting this fear is the fear of getting more vulnerable to the world...U dont want anyone else to hurt u and thus u form a shell...hiding what u are, who u are and certainly ur motives...I do not have the slightest authority to point out what is wrong with it but then ironically it is only a mysterious person who gets more acceptance...consider the comparision between a cool and serious hunk and a talkative simple guy....ask any girl to pick any one and u get no prizes to guess the correct answer....
Are we then living in a world with people wearing masks? Is trust slowly getting transformed to euphemy for give and take policies? or is it that we are too unsure of ourselves to let others know about us?
I don't know but certainly in a world where to say " I know Mr X propoerly" can be a CV point I guess this blog of mine will help me to know myself better and help others( I know noone is interested!!!) to know me...
Will keep posting absolutely arbit posts from time to time...comments if any are welcome